Oh my gosh something really weird just happened! Scarlett texted me asking if she could come round later and it was not the wrong number cos she wrote 'Rachel I need to talk to you, can I come over?'

What am I suppose to put to that? I will text Sad Ed

Back at school, forced to confront my fears by my evil mother (apparently near fatal embarrassment does not count as a valid reason not to be 'educated' for a day). So I had to spend the whole of break and lunch hiding behind Sad Ed (not hard seeing as he has now developed a liking for the different flavours of chunky kit-kats) whenever I saw anyone walk by in skinny jeans in case it was Jack.

On the plus side Scarlet spoke to me today, she only asked me if she could borrow a pencil, but at least it was not a scathing attack on my 'lack' of political knowledge.

Have not been smote, and I have to go to school tomorrow with Jack! At least he will be in the 6th form common room most of the time.

Ok have procured the courage to relay my embarrassment to the blogging world.

I turned up and Scarlett opened the door, saw me and closed it again. So I shouted through the door that I was here to see Jack. She opened up and gave me daggers, she was about to say something evil (I could see it brewing) and then Jack came and saved me. We went into the den and he asked me why I had been avoiding him, told him I didn't know, I was embarrassed cos I could not remember what happened. He smiled and asked what do you think happened? I went bright red at that moment and whispered 'I don't know, just tell me please'. To which he just answered 'we got drunk and went to bed'.

I let out a squeal and whispered 'did we do it?' At which point was possessed by hysterics...I was so mortified I ran out and back down the road, Jack shouting after me from the window. God I hate my life, once again I hope God will smite me in my sleep, arrggghhhh!

Went to Jack's last night and he told me what happened, and I am mortified!

Am going over to Jacks now, he couldn't see me during the day because of band practice or something. I need to be mature and grown up about this I am sure we did not do anything stupid...

Sad Ed said I should talk to him. Will text him now to ask if I can come over tommorrow, which I will do, probably.

I have put it off long enough, I have to go and see Jack. I have fed myself up with power food aka banana and am going to confront this head on.

Actually it is quite dark outside, maybe I will call him,  so we can have a grown up conversation almost face to face.

Although tea will be ready soon so I should probably text him, it's not very adult to have to go to tea in the middle of an important chat.

Yes I will text him, will just make sure I have enough credit...I only have £1, and that is only about 10 texts, maybe I should email him, it is instant if he is online.

Ohhh Sad Ed is calling, will see what he says...

Owww have just woken up
Things are coming back to me in hazy bursts
Oh god I need to check my phone...
6 missed calls from Jack, oh crap and he's calling again now, I am declining him, I can't deal with him right now, I need to tell you all what happened last night, at least what I can remember myself.

6.50 Ok so Jack came and picked me up at the agreed time and we went to the Italian and got a little tipsy using Jack's fake ID.

8.15 We stumbled around Saffron Walden for half an hour doing fake sick noises when happy couples walked past.

8.50 Then we went back to the Stone's to try and sober up, told Mum I was going round Scarlett's which technically is not a lie.

9.00 Turned out we were the only ones there because Suzy and Bob had gone away on a romantic break to somewhere exotic and hot and Scarlett and Jacob are in London. So instead of getting sober we got more drunk.

To be honest it is blurry after that and all I remember is waking up in Jack's bed this morning, with Jack in the shower. So I wrote a note on a post-it and came home and went to bed.

I should really ask him what happened, what if we did it?? Oh my god, no I don't even like Jack like that, at least I don't think I do...

Oooo someone has just dropped off a Valentine's card for me!! But they have not put their name inside, it was probably Jack just teasing me or something, I will ask him later...

Ok so I got a cute dress from new look for only £10! It is Black, with lace sleeves! Am actually rather excited about our non date, guess I should go and get ready, Jack is picking me up at 6.50.

And according to Sad Ed Scarlet is in London for Valentine's day with Jacob, for a romantic break! She used to hate Valentine's day and disagree with spending money for romance! She is such a hypocrite! 

I don't mean date...where is Sad Ed, I need to stop blogging and shop!

To be honest it's the single postmen and women I feel sorry for today, having to deliver countless soppy cards, I am so glad I am above all that, and Jack is too hence why we're going on that date tonight!

Ok so I am gonna go into town with Sad Ed in a minute to see if there are any cheap skirts or something I can buy fro my anti-Valentine's-anti-date-date!

On the same theme James has broken all records this year receiving 15 Valentine's cards! Asked him if they were sent to the wrong address (and are there any for me), the answer was no for both. Not that I cared about the second one, was just curious...

Right so I am going on my anti Valentine's date anti date tomorrow with Jack, and as he never replied to my message and I can't go round his house because Scarlet will hurt me, I guess we are going to the restaurant. Am actually strangely excited. It is probably just the prospect of going against the grain, when traditionally I am quite a romantic!

I need to decide what to wear as well, or should I be casual seeing as it's not a real date? Will text Sad Ed!

Jack says we should go to the new Italian that just opened, is that anti-romance/Valentines day, what do you think? Am unsure, surely we should go to a chip shop or something?

Ugggghhh, February the month of Valentines day and couple based cuisines. It is just over priced over hyper consumerism, and this year I will not be participating in the chocolate heart shaped shambles. I don't have a boyfriend anyway, and won't receive a card so there is no way I can be drawn in. Even Jack agrees with me, he suggested we go on an anti Valentines friend date, I duuno where though, I will ask him now, he's on Facebook chat!